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Introduction
meowmeow hello ... welcome to my music page ! ummm , theres a lot to cover me thinks .
I wanted to include a lot of aspects of music onto one page in hope i could share what i love most; artists, songs, etc. For a long time now, I've always found solace in music, whether it just be listening to instrumentals or just hearing a song for what it was made for makes me happy. I always enjoyed just deep diving into different songs, and what they mean, it's a beautiful thing really and has become something i enjoy so much in life. I think a lot of people can relate when it comes to how music can make you feel, but maybe someone just listens to it just because they want to, which is okay too.
If you havent read already, this is an archive of (mostly) the music i've listened to throughout the years, dating back to when i was born because I think you never truly forget the first song youve listened to whe you were young, but I still lik to include these things since it is important to me. Just small heads up I have many things to say so there will be a huge wall of text coming your way for each year....
as for nativation, this is the main page. On the right, music will be played based off of what year you select + A mini playlist that includes the songs played. ehh depending on which you choose... there may not be a lot of songs, but other times there will be a lot ! The songs i include will be something that means a lot to me, whether i've listened to the when I was at my worst, or if it's nostolgiac, it doesn't matter really, but i hope you can find some enjoyment lookng through everything, and maybe find something like. Music shared amongst others is a beautiful thing.
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Hhh okay , my notable artist would be Evanescence <3 . Along with Frou Frou, however, evanescence has played a huge role in my life as that is one of the first artists I feel like I truly fell in love with.
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Ill quickly start off with Frou Frou . Even though I love them a lot, they didn't leave a huge image, more nostalgia than anything. The song that my mom always played was “Let go” and she did that a lot when I was a baby , and I remember hearing it a lot when I was 4. We listened to it on the way to maryland to get my dog, it’s a small moment but it still makes me really happy when I hear it. <3
But anyway, one of my favorite aspects of their music is how deep the lyrics are, how much Amy Lee is able to put such dark elements of identity, relationship, abuse, trauma and depression in her lyrics so well that when you listen to it, you almost can’t pinpoint on what it means– which is something I enjoy figuring it out when it comes to lyrics. My mom is the same way, so I kinda got that love for music from her. Her songs can resonate with a lot of people I feel like, and I also felt that way with a few of her songs as I had gotten older.
When you listen to their music, it feels almost atmospheric, especially the ones from her Origin album, sound asleep, the evanescence EP, and the Ultra rare tracks of demos. One of my favorite ones from her Origin album is Lies. I absolutely love that song and it’s creepy atmosphere but also how deep the lyrics go, I feel it signifies betrayal and manipulation. Amy Lee always had a habit of putting her trauma and experiences from the past into her music, which is why in her newer albums, things seem more empowering. Another song I’d like to bring up is Field of Innocence, I feel like it’s just the feeling of growing up to fast. Or maybe even the feeling of sexual assault that takes away your youth, your pride and your self love. And another i’d like to mention is Understanding, again another unreleased song that I love dearly. I’ve always seen that song to be one that speaks about someone who spent their life ignoring what caused them pain for so long, that or they’ve felt something so painful for so long and never understood why, hence the song name, our brains don’t want to remember what hurt them most. But the thing is that it will continue to stick with you no matter what, that’s what the song is about.
It’s about really listening and hearing. I absolutely love her music, her lyrics and emotions in it are strong, and cover so many topics that I feel like so many people in different age groups can relate to. I truly believe that her music can give anyone self assurance, and maybe even feel heard. Sometimes, when I feel alone in a situation, maybe a toxic relationship or friendship or just in my own head, listening to her songs make me feel less alone. That is something that will always stick with me for eternity.
2017 Music ! yayy ! I would say this year is the first time I started to like… explore other types of music that wasn't my usuals, which again were like.. Evanescence, Frou Frou, or really any songs my mom would play me. While I did like them, again it wasn't a lot I felt really drawn to.
I started getting into Jpop and Vocaloid mainly. A lot of it started after watching a lot of speedpaints with this type of music to be honest, others were just from browsing the internet and stumbling upon it. Specifically… I found a lot of songs by queen of wang Via speedpaints by Hyanna natsu LOL , I would argue she was the introduction to J-pop alone , so thanks to her, and it also slowly grew my love for anime a little but, mmm thats something for another time.
Anyway, Queen of wand I started listening to a lot more and more, Though I was listening to them on youtube since I didn’t know about spotify or i didnt have any other music apps to be honest, I think i even listened to them in a google drive once cause I couldn’t find all their songs on youtube sigh. I enjoy listening to their music mainly I think because of the atmosphere of it, I couldn't tell you much of anything other than the fact that it’s just sooo catchy to listen to. Recently actually… I found a lot more of their songs after browsing for a while, since for some reason a lot of their songs were taken off spotify, apple music AND youtube.. Insane. Their older music from the 2000s is my favorite because of the gothic style to them, it’s really enjoyable. For a while I didn't listen to them since I was introduced to new music, But I always come back to listen cause it’s all just super duper enjoyable !! I remember being SUPER SUPER obsessed with them in 2019 , I don’t know what it was then. My favorite songs by them were uhmm.. Junai Saiban and nachtzehrer no Toriko, the 2nd song was my obsession during my horrible MMD phase… that from early 2019 was truly a time for me LOLL..
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In the middle of that also again , I said I had a vocaloid obsession. I would say that a lot of that started with a few things– I was a huge rhythm gamer in 2016 (and still kinda am eheh) and I always remember the disappearance of hatsune miku being like I guess my introduction to vocaloid itself. Alongside that, a lot of artists I listened to like Jubyphonic and Lizz Robinett gave me an introduction to Touhou, Other vocaloid songs. My favorite ones were Servant of Evil and Regret messages and People Allergy , those were my top 3 for a lon while. Lizz’s covers of the series made me interested. I’ll be honest– listening to the originals at first made me kinda hmmm, but they gradually grew on me, it’s one of those things where it’s when you listen to one version for so long that when you start to open yourself up to something different , it sounds weird, but I grew a lot of love for it at some point, and as I got older also i find more appreciation I’d say in Vocaloid too, so yeah ! yayy !!
Oh and lastly, I wanna mention Melanie Martinez, maybe that’s a bit problematic considering the stuff going on with her now but I absolutely LOVE her music, my favorite song is an unreleased one called Birthing Addicts. I find the message behind that song to be so sad, she has a very nice voice song and I really relate to that song in terms of just, family wise i guess , so it’s one i enjoy a lot and i still honestly listen to it to this day, along with the other songs she’s made but that was my favorite of all .
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Okayy,,, I feel like this year was a little more memorable for me, I’m not sure whyyy..? It’s kinda like one of those years where i feel like things were a bit more “Peaceful” life wise and I also started finding more appreciation for things around me too , but I dunno, 2019 was a good year.
So speaking about the music, I would say that Faime was my #1 artist for that year, since I was listening to j-pop for a long while, I felt like this kinda music wasn’t really my type but that was really proven wrong. I loved his music for the atmosphere and lyrics of it , i always listened to him no matter what time of day it was, and I always listened to him while I was drawing, so that I'd say was a really nice time in my life cause i was just enjoying myself, I don’t think I felt as happy as i did in 2019 in awhile . While Faime isn’t someone i would listen to regularly now, i still some kinda peace when I turn on a song or two, my favorite one was Closure & the first One i heard was Rain , i remember having like a youtube video playing and that song came on and i just fell all in love with it , and that carried with me till about 2020 !
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Agh as for some others…. Erutan an Eurielle. Those were my pride and joy during 2019…. Eurielle I actually heard first ! I remember I heard her while watching an MMD video, and I just fell in love with her instantly. I loveeeee her style of music so much. I often imagined making art based on her songs but I wasn’t that good back then to do that but it was always fantasy LOLL. a little after I found Erutan, I remember hearing her song “come little children” sped up and it'd just be on repeat for awhile , till i finally found her , and she was again one of my favorites. I think that was also when I found out I liked “Medieval / Classical / folk “ Styled music because that’s kinda what she was centered around. I loved listening to her and I still do when I’m kinda daydreaming about drawing something , you know ?
Those were my main artists, though I did listen to Locket by Crumb a LOT, I listened to a lot of Jack Stauber as well, though I found him in 2018. The reason why I didn't include that was just because there was only one artist I would have been obsessed with that year, but yeah ! A lot of that.
Oh ! Honorable mention is Marina and the Diamonds, i wouldnt say i was the biggest fan of them all really, but i loved their music so much. Teen Idle and Bubblegum bitch were my favorite ones, i remember thinking my parents were gonna judge me for listening to that song because of the lyrics. But I absolutely love teen Idle so much, it has such a strong message and even sometimes listening to it at my age, I feel like it resembles so much emotion regarding popularity, the need for validation and the rush to adulthood that leads to people feeling regretful that they wasted their years doing nothing. I resemble those feelings a lot.
A lot of the music here feels very nostalgic to me because they were shared with me by someone who really made quarantine back then feel less lonely , and I love shared music , so music shared with me is something I hold on for a long while no matter who it is or what it is or if the song doesn’t fit what I like now or anything like that.
Another aspect was me listening to a couple songs that I feel I listened to when I was feeling low again , but I'll start off with the simple part.
I’ve never thought to like rap a lot, I mean, I listened to it, but It definitely wasn’t a hugeeee thing for me anymore cause it wasn’t my style. I was a Nicki Minaj and Cardi B listener for a while before I got into J-pop if that gives you an idea. The songs i added in the player were the style of songs I found on youtube at first, and I found more from someone and I was able to explore this genre a lot more. It’s definitely something I preferred a lot more, I think it was the catchy, calming mood it gave me when I listened to it. Af1 , U were mine, not Anymore & romance garbage we’re my favorites. I listened to these artists and songs all the time. It was crazy, they really made up my 2020 if I'm honest.
Another huge part was Olivia Herdt, I actually originally found her in 2019 but didnt start listening to her more in 2020. Nowadays her music strives away from Lo-fi, but still really good honestly. If you heard the song Strawberry kisses before, I'm pretty sure that it was in 2021-2023 that it was popular, then the two songs in my playlist are her ! I was really surprised when that song kinda got popular because when I heard it, while it was one of my favs, I think she has some other very enjoyable ones. Garden of Words was the one that made me fall completely in love with her as an artist, she has such a beautiful voice and it honestly made me cry a few times. I’ve always recommended her music to my friends because she always made me sleepy when I couldn't sleep some days, or made me feel calmer / less stressed. Thankfully my friends enjoyed her too ! So I recommend her to anyone who still somewhat likes lo-fi when they' re just kinda needin’ something to calm themselves down, at least in my opinion it can help a lot.
I listened to a lot of Marinas and Maria Mena. I only listened to a few select songs, but i still enjoyed them a lot . I listened to Basta ya and Secret by them.
2021 was just a little bit of everything sprinkled together that i dont even remember all i listened to this year LOLL
Sighh.. I remember discovering Luci4 on an edit I saw on instagram and though he sounded so cool , rest in peace , by the way. The rise with Sigillore wouldn't have been heard of without him. I lovedddddd Kroxxxxroad so much. It’s still one of my favorite songs till this day. He made up a decent majority of my 2021– but only for a few months before I started listening to other genres.
Listening to this kinda music dictated my whole personality for like 4 months by the way
I started listening to a lot of cigarettes after sex, the neighborhood and cemeteries. I loved their music sooo much, The neighborhood though was kinda 2020 but eh. I remember listening to them a lot for a good few months. I think I was really sad during this period. I was first introduced to CAS in 2020 but again , didn't start listening to them till 2021. A lot of how i was feeling i think kinda led me to cas , and cemeteries , i think i was feeling kinda alone though i don’t really remember why ? I just was. Mmm yeah.
Ah and I can't forget, clairo was a big part of my 2021 ! well.. To be honest i should've included her earlier because i had been a fan since 2017-2019, but I didn't really since i wasn’t listening to her as much as I was here. One of my favorite songs was bubblegum. I loved it a looottt , but i t spiraled into songs she sang in 2020 , Appleville 2020.9.12 . It isn't a released song, but for some reason it means a lot to me, again i think i was feeling bad during these periods so it kinda makes sense, i feel sad, nostalgic and kinda calmed when I hear it, clairo has such a beautiful voice and I love her a lot <3.
OO another is Punkinloveee… Yeah they were a big part and lowkey still is today in my life ?? I love their music sosos much, I feel a little awkward putting them mentioned in 2021 considering i found them last year, and i listened to them a lot more in 2020 but i thought to add them in 2021 cause i never stopped listening to them really , i didn’ t know where to add them to be honest… I just know I LOVE punkinloveee. Plastic is my favorite song alone with broken Barbie doll.
2022 yayy ! A lot of music here was my beginnings of Breakcore honestly. Breakcore, lolicore, etc etc. You see the genres. But ! I absolutely LOVE this kinda music. Honestly, I found it near the end of 2021, but my entirety of 2022 was just this. Fine Night was one of the first songs I've listened to regarding this genre and was my introduction to it, and I've been super duper obsessed with it since.
I love Goreshit a whole bunch, but as time goes of course i’ve expanded my taste and finding more artists surrounding this genre of music– Tokyopill was a huge part of me, the first song I had ever listened to by them was Let’s all love lain, i immediately fell in love with it because I recognized they were using Let go as a template, and i was just sososo happy hearing it. I wouldn't shut up about it honestly… my second favorite, which to be honest, is kinda my first ? Im being a little biased here since im talking about the first song I've heard from them, but it’s called Text me back. Of course again, I recognize the song since it’s the same voice– Imogen Heap ! I love you…
But anyway , breakcore was again just a huge part of my 2022 and very memorable since I made a shit ton of playlists with the same songs and stuff included, same songs being on repeat, etc. Yandere and Sewerslvt was a good portion too. Yandere mainly, i lovelove yandere SO much. I remember finding them in an edit and I find their music to be sooo beautiful. Honestly i found them in mid 2021, but since I wasnt really listening to breakcore much i figured to just put them in 2022 since it fits with the others. I listened to them a lot during my classes in freshman year and goshh i thought i was in a trance, their music really does that to you on first listen… anyway , yeah ! And of course sewerslvt just because of pretty cvnt , such a really wellknown song.
Another artist I'd like to mention is Shrxda !! Shrxda aah i remember finding her on an edit , i immediately fell in love and fought for my life trying to find her cause nobody gave original song names. But I was blessed when I found her because her music I feel is really good. I honestly feel a lil silly having such a diverse music taste because younger me probably would've judged me a little for switching back and forth of 2 totally different genres of music and it's just.. Yeah. Anyway ! The song I first heard was Slaught3r, it was one of my favorites for a while but I ended up liking Loveb1te a lottt more. I don’t know why to be honest but i think maybe it’s kinda the vibe it gives. A good time to bring up Bandicame– Another really good artist i would say is kinda similar to shrxda, I found them when i was going on a hunt for songs , and gosh I CANT STAND IT is definitely one of my favorite songs from this time, It was so addicting to listen to.
Aaah and lastly Datfootdive– I’ve been listening to them since 2020 really btu that was one song so i was like mm, i dont really wanna put that on there since there wouldn't be much to say ? I explored more of their music while exploring Breakcore, datfootdive is such a good artist and so atmospheric and calming to listen to, they probably made it into your playlists a few times if you had similar music taste as I do, and if not you’ve heard the song then I can go home… at least once before.
I really think theres a huge jump in music style from 2022 up until this year. I wanna say i was never religiously listening to jpop for like…what 3 years before hand ??? Not as much as I was when I was younger. I did listen to music that was in japanese or just .. you know, but not as much as I was this year. I remember hearing someone use Vampire Requiem - Kaya on their instagram story and I think I immediately fell in love. Kaya was my first Vkei artist ! so lemme talk….
Kaya rose, I feel has such a gorgeous voice, Everything about him is beautiful really. It’s like I feel like I need to pay to see and hear him. I would argue that he has introduced to me a lot of styles in terms of music and i guess irl things such as Gothic styles and such with clothing and has also furthered my interest in just the overall visual kei scene. My favorite song for a long while was Infection, Salome and Traumerei. Such addicting songs I feel, But his whole entire discography is just perfection, not one bad song. If you like Visual Kei but haven’t heard Kaya, pleaseee listen to him. I had to hold myself back from adding more songs into this playlist… but just enjoy it.
Funfact… his birthday is 2 days before mine , its destiny !
Okay… moving on i had an idea to go explore some more songs surrounding this genre of music, so I did ! I went on a huge hunt on soundcloud first, and I was introduced to -> Malice Mizer , Kozi , BUCK-TICK & Lareine !! Though i was mainly interested in Malice mizer at the time , when I heard Mayonaka ni Kawashita Yakusoku for the first time, i just knew i was going to like Malice Mizer as a whole in general. I explored them for a longggg while. Regarding the others .. mm not so much , and I didnt hate them nono ! I just really looked into my favorites. Eventually I came across Moi dix Mois.
I learned MDM was a group formed by Mana-sama as a project after Malice Mizer, but ironically I liked MDM a lot more than I did MM , because most of my favorite songs come from them to be honest. The first song I heard was Nocturnal Romance. That song was on REPEAT i tell you for weeks until I heard Monophobia. It’s like the beauty of discovering new artists for the first time all over again the more i heard their songs. I eventually listened to the whole album and my favorite songs were now The Prophet and Shadow Temples X. They are EXTREMELY good
and I encourage them a listen, you can find them on soundcloud or youtube. I love how strong Juka’s voice is in Nocturnal Opera. Eventually I began to explore more of their music and I was just in a huge rabbit whole of their music, My favorite albums by ranking… -> Nocturnal opera, Dix infernal, DIXANADU. Please give them all a good listen. Juka was the vocals for the first two albums mentioned until DIXANADU , to then it was Seth. Seth is the present vocalist for Moi dix Mois. If you're interested in Juka… you can look at the Hizaki grace project !
Okay , mid way I actually found some other amazing artists in the VKEI scene… dazzlingBAD , D, Kaneto-juusei , senketsuakochan, zombie, the gazette, lacroix despheres, madmans esprit. Kamijo, Sadie, Versallies and Exist-trace.. Told you its a lot…. I love a lot of them.
Sighh I found DazzlingBAD whilst making a huge spotify playlist of just vkei artists, the first song i EVER heard by them was camera obscura. I fell inlove with that song. I’ve noticed a lot of people don’t really like dazzlingBAD because of iTs voice. I understand it’s not everyone's cup of tea, so its okay. I do hope you give them a try ! They are super good. I fell inlove with their music and I still look out for new songs till this day. My favorites are Sainte et salope, Sanctuary and happy BIRTHDAY. Happy birthday was the 2nd song I heard by them cause it was in my playlist, another really good song hehe. Sanctuary is so so so good. Like REALLY good. One thing I love about dazzlingBAD is how strong iTs vocals are, and how atmospheric and strong their music videos are. I recommend anyone giving them a watch.
Next mmm I want to mention Lacroix Despheres. I think they are so underrated within the Vkei community, and I don’t know if its because people just have never heard of them or it’s just not their favorite. In my opinion, their theoretical themes and the idea of storytelling behind different characters is such a beautiful concept. All of their songs are lovely + the women in the back singing, truly some of the more ethereal artists ive heard in a long while. Listen to them or else!!
Lastly, I remember i included French pop in here…. Indila !! During this time i had also began to explore music in french a lot more. While I was already on that propaganda thanks to Eurielle, I wasnt actively listening to new artists. Indila was my 2nd one, I listened to her in April of 2023 and I remember just being humbly inlove… my favorite song is Derniere danse. Don’t play….. Anyway! I absolutely LOVE indila , I love comme un Bateau , love story , etc etc. I realized a lot of music from 2018 i listened to or heard of was also from her , i never knew till then. But anyway , i had started listening tooo pomme , and barbara pravi a lot more too but indila was always just my number one here..
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So um,,, it’s a little more personal to me because 2024 was a year where I was kinda just, out of it i feel like. In terms of my mental health. When things happen or when im truly at my worst , i preserve the music i listen to the most during those times.
The lineup seems kinda weird with it but just dont judge too harshly, my main ones I feel in my 2024 that kinda hold something to me were Step on me , Seishounensigatsunayuutsu , and Chop suey. I dunno, I just listened to those all during really bad periods. However step on me was like my main one if that makes sense, I carry that song in my heart a lot, and i would argue that even derniere danse is as well. I know I mentioned Indila in 2023 but she truly carries a huge part of my 2024 as well. So… yeah. Um , this year i had began to discover more jpop artists , not vkei though just jpop.
My main ones were Die milch , hollow mellow and Kanon Wakeshima. Die milch is my favorite one until this day aswell ! I absolutely love their music so so so much, it’s so beautiful and I feel like i’m in a ball room when I heard them honestly. Kanon wakeshima is the same for me honestly, I absolutely love love her, if you’ve heard still doll then thats her song ! Beautiful. Hollow mellow i think is more upbringing than just strictly ethereal feeling if that makes sense.
One of the songs that is really dear to me is For you I hold my breath by Lalleshwari , my friend told me it reminded her of me and so I’ve held that song in my heart for a long while and I still do , it was one of my favorite ones during this year and I feel like it definitely calmed me down when my headspace was really bad so im forever grateful she recommended that to me <33
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2025 wasnt much of anything new really ? If anything ive only explored more into jpop and got back into vocaloid ! So it’s the same genres , just new artists.
I discovered sheena ringo , kinda ? I mean i listened to her before hand already , though it wasnt until later i listened to her . my favorite song is Ishiki , i lovelove LOVE that song so much. Sheena has such a strong voice , such beautiful music and just beautiful everything. I love listening to her. I remember listening to that song on repeat for daysss… it was non stop. But i of course have no regrets, it’s one of my top songs on spotify LOLL , BUT if you havent i do recommend sheena to all !
My other really replayed song was Lilac slumber,,, such a really gorgeous song , i dont really listen to Annabel like that … only if its this song. Normally i wouldnt mention artists or include them if there wasn't much to say , but since 2025 was just an expansion of existing genres i’ve explored already , I figured I'd mention her. I love Lilac slumber a lot , I remember finding it + along with Ishiki on a spotify radio so it felt like destiny finding two gems at once..
I was also listening to Kikuohana a lot more this year too , but i did discover them i think in mid 2024 ?
Vocaloid playlist in mid 2025 when I was curious on other songs I could find. This phase honestly ended kinda quickly in late 2025 , but it was still listened to !
I also discovered Elusin in like 2024… but she wasnt to big of my 2025 till like the start of it LOL , so yeah !
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